2/4/11

Quasimodo Effect

Well, this week was one heck of a ride.

This week began as any other week and I even found myself able to really focus on my novel writing and get myself organized.  I went to Curl with my friend and her team, who have found themselves short two players recently.  It was supposed to be relatively uneventful, except I'd hoped we'd win... when in our fifth end, I slipped.

The event was so quick and everything seemed to slow down so that I could absorb it all.  I don't even remember slipping on the ice, I just remember being in the air about to fall and thinking, "Oh, Poop."  Except I used a cruder vocabulary... and why shouldn't I, it was in my own head after all?

Feet went over head and I landed on the back of my head and neck at a 45 degree angle.  It was really traumatic because as I hit, a wave of electricity numbed my whole body, I didn't even feel myself land on the ice.  All I remember is having the intention of rolling over and then I was.  When my forehead touched the ice, it felt good.  I sighed and then I blacked out.  I only remember having few people around me when I fell, but when I woke I began sobbing and clutching my head.  There were so many people around me I had a hard time trying to recognize any voices.  When I focused on the nearest one she said, "I don't know where it's coming from.  Do you think it's her head?" "No," said another, "her nose."

I finally began to look around instead of stare blankly at the ice in shock. When I looked downwards there was blood on the ice, it was coming out of my nose.  Oh-oh I thought, my inner first aid instructor said.  Don't move, I must've hit my head harder than I realise.  The voices around me echoed, "Guys, we gotta support C-spine, she's bleeding from her nose and she hit the back of her head.  Can I get another person over here?"  Meanwhile I saw stars and my hands and feet were still numb but coming back slowly. 

The ambulance was called and the two women and one man (who was a part of ski patrol) were all very professional and did a very good job.  I was fortunate to have that many people around who knew what they were doing. I had gotten stuck to the ice while laying on it and everyone pitched in to throw water on me and get me onto the spine board. The EMT's did a fantastic job as well, joking with me the entire time, getting an IV on me and asking if it was okay if they cut my shirt so that they could access my spine and hear my breathing.  To be honest, I loved that shirt... but I understood the process so I said "Nah, cut it away, do what you've got to do." 

I got the hospital and my head actually began swelling.  The bump from where my head connected with ice was flush on the board and it began to swell. A band across the forehead held my head in place and as my head swelled the pain grew worse.  I laid on the board for four hours in total through X-rays and CT scans.  It was excruciating.  Eventually I received some medication that helped relieve some of my pain... but not before I made a coward of myself with crying.

The doctor was amazing, never have I been treated better or had as much communication with the medical team.  They kept me as informed as possible throughout the whole ordeal and showed genuine concern for my pain and predicament.  In the end I'd gotten a severe concussion and caused damage to the soft tissues in my spinal cord.  I also realise, through what the doctor shared with me, that I was very lucky I hadn't broken my neck.  Similar incidents with the same fall pattern have caused the neck to break sometimes causing paralysis and other times not... but that my neck wasn't even broken was pretty awesome.

Now, I've had a day where my husband took the day off and babied me and took care of Ruby.  Today is the first day I've had to hold her and take care of her on my lonesome since.  It's tough, but manageable with the pain relievers that the doctor gave me.  Lifting her is the hardest because if I bend much past my waist line I see stars, and it is painful with the severe whiplash effect going on in my head, neck and shoulders.  There is an orange-sized lump at the back of my head and I have a lump on the back of my shoulders and neck area... so I look much like Quasimodo.  Beyond that, I'm healthy, happy and one lucky gal.

Thank you everyone who sent their prayers, love and best wishes.  I appreciate it and it might just be what saved my neck.  I also want to applaud mothers out there who, even when they get hurt, have to take care of their chidlren.  Through the pain and frustration it's a tough job; so I commend those mothers that do it.

1/31/11

Music for Writing

     Surprisingly, I've received a few requests for my playlist when I write.  I have to be honest that I write to a lot of different playlists depending on my mood, the piece I'm working on and the scene I'm developing.  Writing in my blog and light hearted scenes go well with my "Easy Listening" play list.  I also have a playlist I developed solely for my novel that fluctuates from serious to a bit more comfortable, but because I could work on my novel for a long period of time I need things that arouse good "feelings" when I hear them but are also repetitive so I am not tempted to listen to the actual words.  When I do that I get so immersed in music I have a hard time focusing on the scene and then I'm done writing for an hour... it's quite distracting.
     I have to say that I've written some pretty depressing shorts and I have some action packed scenes in my novel.. for those moments I have a "My Hard Songs" playlist.  I say "my" hard songs because my husband considers them quite timid... Some are timid, even in my own eyes, but the beat can be quite strong or prominent so it goes in the hard playlist... Like the U2 song, it's great but the melody is very strong and distinct from the rest of the song so it stirs me up for writing something fun but fast paced.
     So these are a sampling of songs in my playlists but they're also to my tastes... they may not be to yours!  I must also note at this time that I am seriously addicted to songs I grew up with... so you may see a lot of '90, '70's or older songs that make you go, "Whoa, that brings me back years!" 


My easy Listening/Novel playlist
  • Coconut by Harry Nilson (This one's on my playlist twice.)
  • Serenity by Godsmack
  • Blue Collar by Bachman Turner Overdrive (BTO)
  • Everything by Lifehouse
  • You Learn by Alanis Morrisette
  • 1234 by Feist
  • Where No One Knows Me by Jann Arden 
  • Breaking the Girl by Red Hot Chili Peppers
  • Wave over Wave by Great Big Sea
  • There Goes the Neighborhood by Sheryl Crow
  • After Tonight by Justin Nozuka
  • It's Amazing by Jem (Sex and the City Movie Soundtrack) AWESOME SONG!
My "Hard" List
  • Running Blind by Godsmack
  • Control by Puddle of Mudd
  • Turn the Page by Metallica
  • Instant Karma by U2
  • Hangnail by Nickelback
  • Give it Away by Red Hot Chili Peppers
  • Where Are You by Our Lady Peace
  • You Really Got Me by Van Halen
 Be sure to pick songs that encourage you by listening to them... not so much in words but by melody and tempo.  I find when I listen to Classical I get a very different perception and feeling from certain songs than others and the same can be said for anyone.  Since you'll be writing, be sure the music itself is uplifting.  I remember starting the novel out I was listening to songs that had very positive messages in the words... but the melodies? Forget about it... they were so depressing!  So be sure you match them up that way and don't mix too many moods into one playlist, it gets to be tough to control your own feelings when you're writing.  When you go back and write after a weird music stint you always wonder, "What was I thinking?"

Happy Writing and Listening!